So over the next few days I’m going to share the posts I made that I never published, no pictures, just words. I try to not do that because I think it’s boring, but whatever.
As I am typing this I have no immediate intentions of publishing. If you are reading then I have decided to make it “facebook official” and go to the world with my pregnancy. But until that time this is a journal of my journey.
Wednesday, March 28, 2012
It has been about 17 hours since I took my first pregnancy test. It showed a faint positive. I am due to start my period Friday. I will likely test again friday morning. I am nervous. The last time I had a positive test (almost 4 years ago) within a week I was having a miscarriage. I am not that excited right now, I am scared. It doesn’t seem real. I suppose if I can make it through this first week it’ll start feeling real. Maybe in two weeks we’ll start telling family. But I don’t think this will be “facebook official” until I am out of the first trimester. Every time I got to the bathroom I check to see if I am bleeding. I hope this feeling stops soon. I did some calculations on different websites and if you use the date of my last period I am due on December 7th, but if you count the day I ovulated my due date is December 3rd. So it looks like baby may steal my daddy’s birthday of December 6th.
Thursday, March 29th 2012
I am having a real hard time keeping my mouth shut. I am afraid to tell family becuause it will be a part of their lives and I don’t want to get anyones hopes up just yet. I really am having a hard time not telling my mom, I tell her everything, like almost everything. I talk to her usually twice a day, and we talk about work, how we slept, the dogs, whats on TV, our moods, the weather, everything. I don’t think I can last through the weekend not telling her. I told a girl at work today who was pregnant. We were talking and I saw her drinking green tea, and I asked if it was okay while pregnant, she said yes, I said something like wow that’s a relief, I love green tea” to which she replied “are you pregnant?” and I couldn’t lie, so i told her yes, but we aren’t telling anyone yet.
Oh and tonight Paul said I smell like pickles and sugar cookies, he thinks my pheromones make me smell like that, he’s weird.
Friday March 30 2012
Ive noticed I get sick when I eat, that’s really the only time I notice any sickness, but when I eat about 30 min later I get nauseous.
And I am ridiculously tired, like yawning every 15 minutes tired. But once I go to bed at night the insomnia hits again.
I made it through today. Today is the day my period was due, and it never showed. I am excited about that. The next week will be tough but I think next weekend we will tell our parents. I think they need to know, even if something bad happens, I want them to be aware of whats going on.
Sunday April 1st 2012
Nothing new, just very tired, very nervous every time I go to the bathroom. But getting less anxious every time.