verb [ trans. ]
move (troops) into position for military action : forces were deployed at strategic locations.
• [ intrans. ] (of troops) move into position for such action : the air force began to deploy forward.
• bring into effective action; utilize : they are not always able to deploy this skill.
yep, that about sums it up.
I’m not going to lie and say this has been a piece of cake. It’s only been 14 days and I have already decided that Paul is coming home, we are moving back to the states and he is getting a safe, non-deployable job at Walmart.
Okay maybe not really, but that’s how I wanted it for a few days. I’ve started to finally pull out of the worst I think. The terrible fears are beginning to subside. It’s not getting easier, but I am learning to deal with my emotions better. School is finally over, well until Monday I start again. 4 classes, World History, Pre-Algebra, Oceanography & Grammar.
I’ve been working on my fitness, umm… trying to. I’ve run down to the beach a few times. I’d do it more often but a) It’s freakishly hot, and b) i’ve been on the verge of a mega panic attack for 2 weeks and sometimes leaving the house didn’t seem like a great idea. It’s hard to leave the house at all because i never know when he will call, and he cant call the cell. Only the house. Last night he called at 245 am, i was a zombie because i had taken my new ‘relax’ pill and was totally out of it, i remember him calling, and after a few seconds asking me if he woke me up, i guess i wasnt making much sense. I don’t remember anything else. I wish I did, I really treasure hearing from him. As hard as this is I know it will make us so much stronger.
Two weeks down, about 37-ish left.